Motivation is the key

When they were handing out motivation and will power I was definitely at the back of the queue. I couldnt say no to a chocolate biscuit if my life depended on it! Well, maybe if my life depended on it but you get the idea. I come to work thinking no naughty foods today, someone offers me a biscuit and i'm straight in there - no arm twisting needed!

Ok so back to my slim fast diet. Its actually going quite well i've even surprised myself! One for breakfast, one for lunch and then tea. God i'm hungry by the time I get home. Especially as I have been going to the gym straight after work lately. I could literally eat a horse so its very hard not to go crazy and just eat anything and everything. But I am sticking to it. Its amazing!
Altogether I have lost.. well now this depends on from when we are counting. When I first bought my scales I was 202lbs. When I first started slim fast I was 200lbs (hey 2lbs gone without even trying how did that happen!) Ok we'll go from when I started slim fast, I have lost 9lbs!! It has taken me 4 weeks which I dont think is too bad going really. And I wasnt exercising at first (phew have I made up for that in the last 2 weeks).
So I am really sticking to it this time. And its funny because I could have actually been slightly stricter (i.e. pizza and ben & jerrys at the weekend is just a bit naughty :s) but I have still lost!

I think about food all the time though... I may have mentioned that once or twice haha. And I have noticed that I crave BAD stuff straight after the gym. It doesnt help that we drive past McDonalds on the way home! Which is why its extra hard to not just stuff my face when I get home.

I think from this I have realised that seeing results is the motivator... which is like a catch 22 really, as you need the motivation to get going in the first place and stick with it before you can see the results.. which spur you on to be motivated! Hopefully I will now get stuck in the delightful circle which is weight loss-motivation-weight loss-motivation, instead of the vicious circle which was weight gain-depression-eating-weight gain-depression-eating.

Yay for me!!

Water water and more water

I seriously dont know how you are meant to drink 8 glasses of water a day. Even in the summer I think I would struggle with this.

Im sat at work, with a glass of water on my desk and I do try and drink as much as I can, but it does make me feel slightly bloated, and I'm constantly going to the loo! Most of the time I am not thirsty at all but I'm drinking it because I'm meant to.

And also because I'm trying to fill my belly up due to only drinking slim fast for breakfast and lunch. Which is soooo hard. I'm doing ok though, lost 6lbs already and havent really done any exercise. Really need to get into the exercise as it will speed my weight loss right up I know it.
It is quite hard to get motivated though - oh here we go that old chestnut again! But it is! After spending all day at work, you get home have tea and it is hard to make the effort. I guess it depends on how much you really want it.

I spoke to the doctor about my weight last time I was there, she told me she could prescribe me Alli if I wanted, and then went on to explain all of the different side effects it can cause such as 'leakage' (eww) which really put me off. And anyway its not like it does the hard work for you, it just makes you eat less fat (or else it all comes out the other end in pure form yuck). Anyways, slim fast seems to be working at the moment so I will stick with this for a while. I know its not a long term solution and have read all the 'cons' on the internet but hey ho, if it helps me lose a couple of stone I'll be happy with that.

More updates soon...

Desperation

Well... weight watchers bit the dust about 2 weeks after my last post (which again was ages ago im ashamed to say). I knew I had put on weight after my birthday, I only have to look at a piece of cake and I've put on 2lbs. So I didnt bother going the day after. However I did go the week after that, after being SO strict and exercising loads I put on 1/2 lb. So disappointed. It just makes you think (well makes me think) what is the point if I put all this effort in and nothing happens.
And I noticed something the last time I was there. I think most of the people that go to weight watchers are trapped in the cycle of it. Just the same as me I might add, which is why I'm qualified to make this observation. They start on the plan all guns blazing, and for the first few weeks may have some good success. Then one day of one week they go wrong and think oh its ruined now theres no point me going to the next weight in. So they miss it, then they miss one more, and one more. Then after they have put on half a stone more they think I must get back to weight watchers and the cycle starts again. Sad isnt it. I know some people have had good success long term, but its the minority of that I'm sure.

Soooooo, to explain the title of this post, I have started on slim fast. Yes I know quick fixes dont work and all that. But I'm desperate, DESPERATE to give my diet a kick start, a big boot up the bum. Even if I just do it for a few months, say 3, and lose a stone or two I would be chuffed with that. But GOD its hard. My stomach rumbles constantly, I have felt light headed and yesterday my body felt all, like, shaky. I know these arent good things but sod it I'm gonna keep going with it until I see some results. Cos I am SICK and TIRED of carrying around this extra weight. I'm going to the gym later and hoping that speeds things up a bit. We'll see.

I will post my weight loss here weekly and hope I start to see it go down rapidly. Wish me luck... once again.