Wow I really hate myself today. I mean like really hate myself. With a passion.
I am a fat ugly blobby mess with no willpower who is failing miserably at losing weight.
I am feeling desperate and getting ever more anxious about this situation. Even looking up detox's and more radical stuff on the internet to see what I can do.
Am seriously thinking about staring myself, and doing loads and loads of exercise for as long as I can stand it. I need to do something drastic or I will be stuck in this rut forever. I feel like crying, I feel like screaming, actually right now I feel like throwing myself off a bridge just so I dont have to face it all.
I am so sick of living my life this way. Non-stop guilt and self loathing everyday. I actually feel a bit worthless. I know people look at me in the street and all they are thinking is what a fat bitch. And why not, its true.
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My attempt to get skinny, the physical and the mental struggle I face on a daily basis.
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