Things are getting desperate.
I havent lost any weight in the last month or so despite still doing the same things I was doing in the previous months. I dont know why my body is refusing to give up anymore weight I really dont.
I have even been researching on pro ana websites for tips and tricks. I feel a bit guilty for doing it, dont know why. I guess its because I'm so obviously not anorexic but everyone starts sonmewhere?! I'm kidding, that is in bad taste. TASTE! It all reverts back to food in the end.
Uurrghhh, I am actually panicking and its making me feel anxious. I think the next few weeks I am going to really have to crank it up a bit, go to the gym at least 4 times a week and go on my exercise bike every other day. I have to do some form of exercise everyday. I do walk for about 30 minutes altogether everyday to the bus stop, but thats really the minimum you have to do before your body starts to fat burn.
Also I really need to sort my food out. I have been on slim fast for the last few months, one for breakfast one for lunch and a low fat tea. But if I am really honest with myself my tea hasnt changed at all, I am still having what I would of had before. I need to start having soup or cereal or something small for tea.
It sounds so easy when you write it down, but the reality is I LOVE my food. Obviously I do or I wouldnt be in this situation. I am so hungry by the time I get home its like my brain takes over my body and I just eat normally even though I know I shouldnt be. GOD its so hard. I am so so so so so sick of living this life.
I need to do something drastic.
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