Time Flies

The weeks go so fast lately.
You have to make every day count on SW as before you know it, its the weekend and (in my case) weigh in on Monday! It seems to come round so fast.

So far this week, I reckon I've been pretty good. Made a really tasty butternut squash and bacon risotto for tea last night, the husband is loving the amount of new meals I'm making lately!
I've also been on the exercise bike once and I'm going to my weekly zumba class tonight. Which I actually look forward to, imagine that! Friday I will be on the bike again, and at some point over the weekend my and hubby will go on a super long walk again. Well if it worked last week, I'm sure as hell gonna try again this week!

There are so many weight loss programmes on at the moment. On Tuesday night I watched a programme called The Biggest Loser UK. Now I'm in 2 minds about this show. On the one hand, these people are getting a massive helping hand and making positive changes to their health and wellbeing, that they admit freely-they couldnt have done by themselves. They're taught about things such as nutrition and exercise, and have 3 personal trainers with them everyday.
But, the issue I have with the show, is that it does sometimes feel like we're intruding on private moments. Standing on a scale (with your t-shirt off..the men obviously) and being weighed in front of god knows how many people just seems a little humiliating to me. I know they know what they've signed up for.. but still.

I would hate for anyone to know what I weigh. The only people who know are me, the weighing lady (for want of a better description) and the sw class leader. (Oh and anyone who reads this blog ha). Not even my husband. I'm too ashamed, and even when I hit my target weight I can imagine being too embarrassed to tell anyone. I dont mind telling people what I've lost - thats a whole different kettle of fish!

It's embarrassing to know you've let yourself get to this situation. And to know no matter what you wear, or how you act, that other people know it too. Just by looking at you. Its not something you can hide or cover up. Some days you may feel better about yourself and think you look a little nicer. But to everyone else, you look the same, overweight. I can't wait for the day when people dont look at me and only see an overweight person.
I watch these weight loss programmes, and knowing I am included in the statistics is pretty depressing. 'X amount of people in Britain are overweight' that includes me I think, I am one of those people they're talking about.
I dont want to be part of that number anymore.