Mrs Miserable

God I really am Mrs Miserable today.
I have to post again as theres nowhere else to get it out! I feel like I'm going mad.

I've stomped about like a bear with a sore head all day long. Hardly spoke a word at work and on the verge of tears pretty much all day. Whats wrong with me.

I feel so down and miserable, I'm getting sick my hearing myself say that now. I need to snap out of it before I spiral into oblivion and ruin everthing.

EDIT
Why is it that when you start ttc, all you see is babies! And everyone you know is announcing pregnancies?!...
Just today, I have found out 2 facebook friends are pregnant.
When I nipped to Sainsburys on my lunch break - my wedding day makeup artist (havent seen for 2 years) was pushing a pram with her small baby!
Then I turned down an aisle and almost walked into a heavily pregnant woman!!

Its unbelievable. It feels like god is taunting me.

My rational mind knows that 6 months isnt a long time. And that, like I have been advised, anywhere up to 2 years is normal for ttc. But when I think about it too much I get terrified that it will never happen for me. I think I put pressure on myself too because I always said I would have my first baby before I turn 30. And see as I turn 30 in two months it isnt gona happen. That was quite hard for me to come to terms with at first.
I'm really prattling on arent I. I'm sure I've said all of this stuff numerous times.

Ok, I really will stop now, you must be getting so fed up of my negative attitude.
Hopefully it will have disappeared by tomorrow.